Tuesday, 2 March 2010
{ 12:52 }
One month without blogging over here.
I just ended my exams yesterday.. But i only have less than a week to rest..
My IPP will start on the 8th next week.. A little nervous and afraid.. Still Jia You Candy Seah..
I think there's really no turning back for this friendship with her.. I am trying hard still the gap is still lies in between us..
Sad but i think i deserve it.
Relationship.. Make me tired..
Where is our trust?
Where is my trust to you?
Insecure, afraid and disappointed is what i feel from this relationship..
I am really trying very hard to be perfect in your eyes.. Then what about you?
How much i stands in your heart?
Is there at least a little space?
I really hope so..
Whenever, i need you, i assume u to be there..
I assume u will be the one standing by me to console me till the end..
Still, its my silly assumption to believe on that..
I am really tired to repeat the same old arguement with you..
I don't wish to release my hand..
What about you?
My love is true to you i swear, how about you?
3 years, without fail, i always hoping to be the one that can stand by your side if theres a need..
However, that is my assumption again..
Problems arise long ago, just that i never get to notice about..
I am still silly to believe and trust..
In fact i really hate it whenever you say you are busy..
Why do u only mention it to me?
Am i really that irritating and bring in disturbance in your life?
Or other reasons?
I cant stop myself to question me..
In the past, when i ask for a dinner with u, u will say i am busy no time for it.. nvm, its ok..
But i never get to know that u can have it with ur classmate..
Are they just simply ur classmate or other status?
Maybe i am wrong too..
Too many problems which kept to myself without saying ended up with such a big one..
The prob is will u listen even if i say?
I confess to him ystd..
I ask if he in love with other, he say no.. and he dun get what i mean...
He might find that i am paranoid..
But how to make a girl nt to be paranoid when her boyfriend don't even a time for her..
When i have problems in school.. I need your shoulder, ended up i get the scolding.. I know i was wrong by choosing going poly as my decision, but all i hope still at that moment is your concern and console..
Till this point, he still don't get my point and he think he was nt in wrong..
Disappointed over my silly assumptions and expectations..
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