Sunday, 31 January 2010
{ 22:45 }
How is my world look like right now?
One word to say and describe, LOST..
I know, i cant complaint or grumble much anymore..
I am a big girl now.. Still i hate the cycle that i am living with..
The life cycle, doing the same old routines and repeating the same silly mistake over and over again.
Things that i will face repeatedly,
- Shortarge of money to spend
- Insufficient time to do my work and revision
blah blah...
Recently, i began to be so miserable, a friend of mine, yes, which i call her as friend. I dun think she treat me as a friend overall. Poly life are really scary and sucks, thats what i can conclude from.. I did not manage to find someone who are trustable at all..
In fact, people in polys are cunning and selfish.. I am not compactable to compete with them, not at all and i know where i am standing but still, i am being eyes on..
Sigh, i cant say that my life is sucks, because its not completely sucks..
I miss my boyfriend damn lot, but he is really busy with his life, well same to me as well..
I could sense that he is giving me a cold shoulder nowadays but WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DID?? WHY PEOPLE ARE ALL AGAINSTING ME RIGHT NOW??
Am i suffering from some depression or willness? I think so.
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
{ 21:40 }
2010 first week of the year..
It do not seen fine or happy to me at all.. Inspite i am upset and emotional..
How much time have i wasted everyday, every week and every hour?
How much things have i done to fullfil people hope?
I regret all the things that i have make, all the steps that i have choose..
I neglected someone that are even dearer to me..
How many more times will we still spend together?
I am sorry..
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Lastly, i love you deeper than the sea and ocean..
Love you mum...
Saturday, 2 January 2010
{ 11:11 }
我希望能从口中知道是我想太多了！！！
I hate to be alone, i hate lonliness.. It suckss...
I hate being neglected.. Why must such things always happened on me?
What the hell have i did to deserve?
Goodness sake.. I am having a damn headarche..
I am trying myself to avoid all those arward that will have.. Still things still the same..
God.. Why?
I don't even have a trust on my friends which i call them friends..
Do they treat me the same as friend??
Sucks... My life is dark and sucks..
