Friday, 26 September 2008
{ 21:45 }
I feel very lonely all in the sudden.
I suddenly get to realise that i do not really haf a great friend to share all my feelings about.
Went to visit Vicki's blog recently, i been knowing her for nearly 4 years yet we did not did anything that are beyond the border. Kinda of jeolous isn't it?
Why am i feeling like this? WHY?
Duper Emo now.. Sigh..
Recently really not in a good mood. Cos firstly, my school will resume soon.. 13th oct, FCUK!
I hate it. Why? How come i have this feeling that working seen more happier than everything now? When working, i dun feel any stress at all. I can work and have fun all I wan.. Yet when come to schooling, I am nth.. I feel really useless whenever i come to realise that my result and myself is sux.. Why? I cant work as a promoter forever isn't it? Things still have to move on overall. But, beside working i think i will hardly get to see myself laughing and talking happily again.. Second semester will begin shortly, I'm so afraid that i will lose out again.. I dun wish to score badly, I am a technical idoit!
Secondly, darling's sister get to find out that he has been paying off my dinner fees as well..
But, err.. What's wrong? I also been doing that so to him what.. I dun get it you know?
Feeling very upset when i get to know that my impression towards her sister is like this.. Is like come'on.. WTH~ She mean that i also been working so i have the ability to pay for my own dinner and food.. Ya.. I really never ever force him to pay for me.. I swear.. But.. the feeling that i feel now is like...~
She asked darling about his saving going on.. Well.. He din save constantly thats why his sister find that if he did not pay for all my expenses he will able to save more.. But but but, I been persuading him to save up, I did told him the importance of saving and value of money. Thinking back now, I find that i am really that FCUK-ing innocent to be blame at..
好人没好报!
Duper sad now..
I never ask much from him before. I hardly able to receive any surprise presents or gifts from him cos i know he is not rich. Always towards harshness i will think about the consequences.. But.. SIGh!
I also that love isn't the same anymore.
I know there isn't a point for me to tell him cos he will sure answer me that nth will remain the same always.. Ya.. True..
烦烦烦， 我就像快死去的人在当心一切
I hate it.
Not happy at all.. :(
He even tease on me towards my English problems.. he is an english educated.. I know, I am really trying very hard to be the best girlfriend..
Although nobody is perfect, but everything take time.
Successfully break down:(
Friday, 19 September 2008
{ 10:49 }
Dear blogger.
Back to blog over here.
I went to visit
wei yang blog. I read his blog after so long. My gulit will still be there.
Its unremovable. Right?
SOrry and sorry over and over again..
But it wun cure any of the pain out there..
Sorry really work.
Whenever I have that sense of feeling I will apologize to Him and dear again and again..
But never will I apoplgize to the others
Thursday, 18 September 2008
{ 11:52 }
Am I really born stupid?
Mum and family always praise me as a smart girl. But I dun really think so.
My yr 1 sem 1 GPA is only 2.5.
Its higher thn i expected.. really..
But, once i notice that some classmate of mine did even better i find it so angry..
They skipped lessons and school. Prank and havoc around yet they excel better.
I find it so unfair for me.. Really..
I did put in hard work and effort in learning, I undergo many obstacles and toleration also depressions. But nobody knows.
Its fate..
If a smart and clever person, no matter what they did they still have the logical sense.
ME?
I am just a peanut.
Peanut brain and etc.
Here then i realise, in Polytechnic, no matter how much u did and put the only things pay off is the outcome, Not the process at all..
So, does that mean that at the very beginning working hard is a wrong too?
I dunno anything now.
I cant think of anything the feeling that i am undergoing is SUX..
Life sux!
Reality and unfair, baised even sux.
How high should i pull my socks till?
aSk god, ask yourself!
Monday, 1 September 2008
{ 10:18 }
Hi.
Back to blog here again.
Feeling disappointed:(..
I hate broken promises.. I hate it.
Why? I dun ever haf the time from him. His time is always with others.
People always come before me..
Yet, I am like an idoit that wasting all my effort just for his attention.
His reason is always the same, I feel sleepy, I meeting Yee meng, I'm working.. Etc,
Sigh, Why?
Cant I throw my temper and tantrum, Ya, whenever such happened u will blame me for not understanding, whatever....
I am getting used to it..
MAybe, by not showing too much care and concern in a relationship will be better.
Right?
Learn to correct mistakes and move on. :)
