Sunday, 8 June 2008
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My days are just simply so miserable.
Nothing that can explain how i am feeling now.
Do u understand my feeling?
Devastated!
Damn it.. My life is sux..
Can anyone cheer me up?
I am just so sad can..
How can i feel so aimless now? That isn't me also.. Poly really horribe.. I hate it badly...
I am crying instead in despair.
Who knows?
Why am i stressing on myself?
Why those workloads are giving me stress.
Why am I feeling so tense up?
Is it really a wrong to enter polytechnics?
I really don't wish to fail any module, but, my six sense telling me that nothing seen good for me.
Sigh~
Life Sux
God, can i stop suffer from all such stress?
I am really paranoid.
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Jo ask me before when is my last date with Mike.
Well, I told her: " I think definately more than few weeks."
We often met after school to go home or have dinner after that.
Few nights ago, we meet to talk about feeling.
I talked to him all about my school problems.
In the end, he make me feel that I am a stupid.
In fact at the moment I really hope he can embrace me or console me out, but, things don't turn out that way.
Sigh
Is it true that the longer a couple been together, the more we treat things as part of life, such as feeling?
Recently, he make me feel that for him having a relationship dun seen important anymore as he can prefer to be alone without friends, I think same to relationship. Isn't it?
Well, I wander does blogging consider part of cowardity?
Coward to express all the doubtful feeling?
Coward to face the reality?
Coward to etc?
I think so, right?
Now, I don't know how to express all my feeling and what I am thinking to him.
I am really afraid that things turn out to be a cold shoulder.
This will make me feel that I am so silly.
I wanna say: " I still miss you badly darling!"
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P.s: God please bless me all the best, and lessen my stress plz as I really hate it =(
