Thursday, 26 June 2008
{ 21:15 }
Why??
Why my life is being changed by all those loads??
HAte it..
Candy hate it.. Argh~~
Why I am not a clever genius?? Why am I being so stupid??
I cant even cope with school work.. I shouldn't be in here.. Right?
I am a Dummy..
Who can help me?
Rescue me from this situation?? I am really sick and tired..
Help!
Sometime i am thinking what had happened to me?
In fact, this isn't me at all..
Why I cant be like a simple minded people..
Sigh
My life is sux..
I know that nobody can help me expect myself..
Face the reality
Friday, 13 June 2008
{ 11:03 }
Here its goes then I realise that i am so lonely.
Sitting in an empty living room, looking through other blogs. There i find myself as a loner.
No friends around me. No one to keep me accompany. All my true friends have also gone since farways.
Thats my life I think.
Holding a camera on my hand, I look so aimless. Look so retard to camwhore all by myself.
I am just too bored.
I hate to be alone. I hate when no friends and support around me. I hate to be a loner. But, I still one of those victims. Agree?
Label: My life is horrible.
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If one day U were to leave, I will agree with it.
I will respect all your decision.
I will learn to face it.
Maybe by letting you to be alone. U can really do things that u really want.
Sometime, I really find that i take up most of your time and freedom.
Sorry
Even if i were to leave u, I will try hard not to think of you.Label: Love = sweet?? or Love = hurt??
Sunday, 8 June 2008
{ 21:39 }
My days are just simply so miserable.
Nothing that can explain how i am feeling now.
Do u understand my feeling?
Devastated!
Damn it.. My life is sux..
Can anyone cheer me up?
I am just so sad can..
How can i feel so aimless now? That isn't me also.. Poly really horribe.. I hate it badly...
I am crying instead in despair.
Who knows?
Why am i stressing on myself?
Why those workloads are giving me stress.
Why am I feeling so tense up?
Is it really a wrong to enter polytechnics?
I really don't wish to fail any module, but, my six sense telling me that nothing seen good for me.
Sigh~
Life Sux
God, can i stop suffer from all such stress?
I am really paranoid.
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Jo ask me before when is my last date with Mike.
Well, I told her: " I think definately more than few weeks."
We often met after school to go home or have dinner after that.
Few nights ago, we meet to talk about feeling.
I talked to him all about my school problems.
In the end, he make me feel that I am a stupid.
In fact at the moment I really hope he can embrace me or console me out, but, things don't turn out that way.
Sigh
Is it true that the longer a couple been together, the more we treat things as part of life, such as feeling?
Recently, he make me feel that for him having a relationship dun seen important anymore as he can prefer to be alone without friends, I think same to relationship. Isn't it?
Well, I wander does blogging consider part of cowardity?
Coward to express all the doubtful feeling?
Coward to face the reality?
Coward to etc?
I think so, right?
Now, I don't know how to express all my feeling and what I am thinking to him.
I am really afraid that things turn out to be a cold shoulder.
This will make me feel that I am so silly.
I wanna say: " I still miss you badly darling!"
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P.s: God please bless me all the best, and lessen my stress plz as I really hate it =(
Wednesday, 4 June 2008
{ 12:40 }
Hi bloggy.
Back to blog here.
I seriously hate what I am suffering from.
Life had change dramatically. I am wandering entering a polytechnic is a good or bad thing for me.
What do you think?
Studying all those stuff is really what i persue for?
I been asking myself, but i still don't know how and why.
My cloud seen dark ever seen the day it started.
I am being hardly hitted by the heavy loads.
Iam badly broken down into pieces now.
Crying in despair and suffering from depression, I am really badly stress.
I feel like smoking out, really.
I wanna be feel release by the environment and pressure.
How will i be able to face it.
I don't want to face the reality now, as i hate it.
My life and days is Sux!
Tuesday, 3 June 2008
{ 19:56 }
Back to blog here!!!
Well, i am feeling damn stress in Polytechnic..
Sigh!
I hate my life, badly!!!
Many project coming up and going to due soon....
Shit it, damn it!
Exam exam exam also, how?
Candy going to die this time round.. I hate it la...
Well, I will stay strong and move on OK!
I must trust myself =)
well, darling I miss you badly ok!!!Our life seen so busy now ='(still love YOU!
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