Wednesday, 21 May 2008
{ 15:27 }
Hi Bloggy
I really dun understand why i like to voice my happiness, my dissapointment and sadness over here than my other blog?
Hopefully that nobody find out about this blog as it my only space to voice out everything.
Yesterday, I had received a news. Boon Keong, our ex-macphersonian and current Nyp Student had pass away. Its a tragic, which happened unexpectedly. Although i dun noe him well but still he is someone that i knew. Darling went over to his wake on the middle of the nite.
I feel really damn depress about it. He is only 19th. Fate had bring his life away from this world.
Dreamz and wishes that he had not fullfill too. Why?
In life why should we face all those thing?
Is it a challenge? Or a signal?
This accident make me wanna tressure all the people around me.
Time and tide wait for no man.
We cant be faster than time, but, we can at least be in phase with it.
Cherish people around you.
Spend time wisely, love, care and concern more.
Lastly, hope his family, friends and girlfriend faster get well from this situation.
I believe he don't wish people to get too sad over this.
Life still have to move on.
To boon keong: Rest in peace, your kindness, memories will always stay in people heart.
Monday, 12 May 2008
{ 12:29 }
Its been fouth days till now.
How are you feeling, candy?
Sorry mum for your worries I am fine.
In fact, i also dunno how problems arise.
Well, maybe since the very beginning we are tolerating.
What had happened?
I think u have change yet you think i had change too. Isn't it?
I had let Jovial down. I don't think i can move on anymore. Think that my maximun.
Love hurts, really hurts.
Not only once, its more than that.
Numb?
I surpose so..
Am i giving up? Yes, maybe.
Am i missing him? Yes. i did.
Am i waiting for him? Yes, I am!
Nothing came to my reality.
Its just a wait with no answer.
First day, crying badly.
.
.
.
Today?
Then i realise I am numb about it.
Think it show stupid by messaging him and pestered him, Its not me at all.
Wait till he willing to approach me i think.
As, Candy is really tired.
What if he don't till xxx or forever..
Alright, just treat it as the end for us.
No point to hold a man back when feeling is no longer there.
No point to shed further more tears when no one is being appreciated.
No point to get myself hurt when everythings is gone.
I can only stay strong and move on.
Live well and stay great!
Get myself busy and enjoy all my beautiful time.
I can said it so easily, but, can i really do it??
Will wounded be heal so easily?
Will Good-bye always be so easy to say?
When will i really stop crying over you?
Can i really be that strong?
Hear no answer.
Sunday, 11 May 2008
{ 13:29 }
Is it true that our love had changed??
Feeling not the same anymore?? Maybe?
When sweetness no longer there, things turn to be meaningless to us.
When tears run out dry, this show how numb i was now.
How?
Talk things out but revenge on each other?
In the past, i hang your calls, now your turn??
How we going to communicate also??
Once
i try of being love or loving someone, there i know how hurt reality is.
Love will never be sweet, wanderful or great.
No love will be like fairytales that nice at all..
Its ALL A DREAM.
After waking up there u know the pain.
1 yr 4 mth relationship, what have i learn?
Ask yourself. No Blames or fingures to be pointed at each other.
If wanna blame, jUST blame yourself first.
Maybe the longer we been together, habbits no matter good or bad become part of our routine.
Agree?
The longer we together, the greater disappointed we give to each other.
The longer we together, the more blind we became.
Sorry, my friend, I cant be like your relationship so amaze and wanderful..
Coz, I seriously lack of Communication with *him*.
Even though i know how much i love him, how much i miss him now, I still remember, feeling will still never be the same again.
Take care
