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12012007

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Saturday, 28 April 2007 { 23:10 }

I was the one.. who said leave. Yet, I'm the one who are worried.. why?? =/
I really dislike myself of thinking too much and suspecting all this all that.. Do you get it? Its hurt.. Both meant the same. i noe her well she is the type of person who will only kept to herself.. Wad if one day.. such thing happened.. how?? will i be like Liping.. Or will i jus feel i am the third parties instead?

She is my fren... My dearest fren.. She is always innocent and fragile..
If such thing do happened in my relationship, will i still be the one sparing people or the one making a big fuss over it.. Currently i just feel that i will spare them both..

Frankly speaking.. i dislike people to do it behind my back. i will feel being betray.. really..
Will they? How? i have no more trust and faith on him and myself.. i find myself useless now.... wat can i do.. will time really heal the wounds? will he gave me back the past? will we still being able to sustain together?

Wad if he took a long time to get use...... will he still contact me back? or will he start a new relationship with a new partner?
I'm confuse.. i am complicated too......... Can i seriously put this to a side and stop thinking and stop mention about it? May I?
God bless..

{ 15:01 }

I had spoke to him.. and i had came to a solution......
I ask him to contact me once he can get used to his school work and friends.. Was my decision very childish? Really??
How long will it take for him to juggle well in both factors? Both are impt to him ya, i understand.. How long will i be waiting? As a promise, he had to work hard in his stuff.. same to me, i will work hard too..
I will wait for you, there for you as long as i stand a place there..

Lets take time then..
Take care..
God bless =)

Friday, 27 April 2007 { 22:06 }

why am i thinking this freaking way? i think i was over childish..
but i hope all are nt true.. :/ i hate myself.. why am i like that?? Its sucks.. ya.. although, i will send u the greatest blessing.. but, may i trust you??

But,do u noe sum thing bloggy?
Feeling will grow deeper day-by-day
In the same time feeling will fade day-by-day.. wat shld i do??
I intented to surprise him up with the SHE pre copies.. but.. i kept my mouth shut.. when i realised that.. i find that i am disturbing them..

i must'nt.. she my greatest frens.. she a perfect gal too.. how?? wad shld i do?? if by comparison.. nth i can compete of.. ya.. but......

Every memories, every emotion.. if such things happened. i had to bury it.. and stay strong.. i must.. nth will happened de yea.

why am i jeolous and afraid? why? why must i ever exist in this world to creat chaos instead of peace? why mus i ever suspect em? why? why am i so foolish and imature? why?
why must i cried over a splited milk and cried over such things? why
can anyone tell me?? anyone?
i dun no how to begin.. i dun no wat to do.. i will remain silent and bear with all the pain.. i will..
God bless you!!

Thursday, 26 April 2007 { 12:13 }

hi bloggy..
Have u ever wandered before why do peoples attached?
Actually i'm curious about this recently..
Then does people talks about loves or sumthing else even?yea? nt sure right?
In some relatioship, whenever people gets hurt, they buried all their memories... but, why do they did this? I am nt sure weather it will happened to mi not.. maybe yes maybe no.. who noes.

Then how sweet will a relationship usually last? Was dere ever anything call forever? does forever really do exist? Sigh

I will only think of forever when sum thing sweet came across my mind.. but how long will it substain ya?

Maybe to me, my mr MIke was quite careless and forgetful.... his bubby might always came first before me.. but, recap.. why i still in deep with him? yeah, cos i love him!!!!!!!!!

SOmetime i was oso wandering, why? sometime i was different when i was with him..?..
i recently haf a tot.. a tot of being a simplest and lucky women of all.. its alright without$$$$ but but but.. i can still yet be the luckiest women of all.. haha..

Love you lots and lots- mr mike :)
take care

Wednesday, 18 April 2007 { 12:01 }

hi bloggy,
how have you been? i'm feeling very depress despite those things mention.. but, is how much i worth? which friends will be in my side when i really in deep? Frankly speaking, am i really that sux? why nobody around me like me??

Sy she ans okay for just entertaining me.. how can she like that?? i am nt a monkeey in the zoo.. i am human being.. i haf feeling.. even if i am an animal i oso do haf feeling.. PLEASE! LEARN TO RESPECT OTHERS BEFORE U GET TO RESPECT URSELF..

Sf, other bitch.. please make ur mind clear.. and stop acting childish.. this make yourself even more disgusting. get it..

True Friends.. i noe.. i treat every friends truely.. but why? no one will realli treat mi that way??
God, can u tell me?? Am i really that worst??

Monday, 16 April 2007 { 10:15 }